Day 151: On Saturday morning my gal pal, Jenny, and I went to Kindness Yoga in Cherry Creek for a “kinda hot” yoga class. Thirty minutes into the class the instructor asked me if I had ever practiced that type of yoga before (I have, lots of times), after that, my ego clouded my mind with thoughts of doubt in my practice. I have been practicing yoga for two years and my ego felt defeated. I had to hold back my thoughts and remind myself that yoga is not about skill level, it’s about being able to quiet my mind and look deeper inside. Realllllll deep….. 🙂
Day 152: Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of a horrific event that shook my life, the lives of my friends, co-workers and a close-knit community. There were feelings of extreme sadness, fear, doubt, bewilderment and every other emotion on the spectrum. March 11th would now be marked as a day that changed the lives of many loved ones and my own self.
I walked two miles into lululemon and thought about all of the emotions that I felt one year ago. The fear rushed back into my body quicker than I imagined, but it was replaced with a sense of peace in knowing that this year has come to a close. Regardless of the closure, there is no manual on how one should feel when going through a traumatic event. The feelings still overwhelm me to think about, so I tackle them one by one…at an incredibly slow and manageable pace.
So how did I sweat on that dreadful one year mark? I practiced yoga with six other lululemons and with an outstanding instructor, Roger Martin-Pressman. Roger talked about daylight savings and the theme of our class was how to “save sunlight” in our lives. It seemed incredibly fitting, seeing as how last year it felt like sunlight was briefly taken away. He said that in order to bring light into our lives we have to be able to embrace the dark. Embrace the dark- sometimes that’s incredibly hard to do. Without the dark, the sun wouldn’t be so welcomed and spectacular. Although there are some things that take place in life that we will never understand, I can find peace in loving the light and knowing that beautiful souls in heaven contribute to the light the warm our lives.
Day 153: Today Mike and I skied in Keystone for two hours in the morning and then came back to the hot sunny Denver and hopped on our road bikes for ten miles. Ski boots + riding shoes (in the same day) = #coloradorocksmyworld.